sorry if this offends anyone. i just wanted to vent.
yes, this is what i've been getting from people over the past few years, but it's especially bothering me now considering most of it is coming from my grandma, who insists i drop 100 pounds instantly so people won't be tempted to rape me. and every time i show her an outfit im really excited to have because i think i'd look cute in it, she goes on an on about how it will never fit and im too fat for anything.
i hate waking up and thinking "is someone going to tell me how disgusting i am again? is someone going to rape me because i have huge boobs i cannot help? is someone going to beat me up for how i look?" and "am i going to gain more weight? am i going to look worse? am i going to fit into my favorite dress anymore?" god i want to cry just thinking of it
i love to eat but i feel bad for doing so
i hate having to feel this way about myself. i hate that people want me to feel this way about myself.
sorry for venting. i'll r emove this la ter